So, here I am.

Tuesday night, and I'm sitting here in the blessed coolness of a change, burning CDs for Greta and feeling mildly buzzed from two glasses of red - or was that three - over dinner. I'm feeling better, or at least, less worried. Although 'tense' seems to be my default setting most of the time, even when I'm feeling good. I've put some money towards the credit card that was due today, and I get paid my first full fortnight of full time tomorrow. And I've had a pleasant evening, full of good conversations, bad jokes and much laughing.

Greta is good for both of us.

There's a hollow of BRM's shoulder where I always used to lay my head when we hugged - even now, giving him a "friendly" hug because I feel the need for human contact, I still find that spot, and it feels so right, so good. I miss it, and at the same time I feel angry at myself for being so weak, so pathetic.

I just get so tired of being the bitch.

Agh, bloody red wine, I always get like this when I drink it. Nothing to see here.

The things you find in other people's CD collections...

This is just too fun to ignore...

Music To Make Love To Your Old Lady By Lovage.

They're a rather weird hip-hop/dub outfit, with definite 70's porn film soundtrack leanings. Dex, you'd love this. I'll burn you a copy when I'm done with Greta's.

Here's the title list:

Ladies Love Chest Rockwell
Pit Stop (Take Me Home)
Anger Management
Everyone Has A Summer
To Catch A Thief
Lies and Alabis
Herbs, Good Hygiene and Socks
Book Of The Month
Lifeboat
Strangers on a Train
Lovage (Love That Lovage, Baby)
Sex (I'm A)
Koala's Lament
Tea Tim With Maseo
Stroker Ace
Archie and Veronica.

There's a definition on the back of the CD of the term "Lovage"

"Lovage is an herb that is said to be a benefit for relieving abdominal pains due to gastrointenstinal gas. It's also been touted to reduce flatulence when consumed as a tea brewed from its roots and leaves." American Herbal Society of Quebec. (?) Dr Neusbomb.

*chuckles* I feel less mopey, reading this.