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deathpixie) wrote2003-05-10 08:11 pm
deathpixie) wrote2003-05-10 08:11 pm
Birthday?
Well, I can say without exaggeration that I've had better birthdays. My 33rd was spent on the couch with a box of tissues and the world's foulest tasting cough syrup, feeling like death. This cold, flu, whateverthehellitis, has no respect for institutions like birthdays and decided to make life exceedingly miserable. To the extent that I had to call Phil and cancel any plans for carousing tonight, do little more than cough down the phone to my parents, and feel rather sorry for myself. Still, did get a vi sitor (and a birthday gift) in the shape of BRM this afternoon - he brought me a lemon scented geranium and a terracota pot, plus the loan of his stereo, so I have non-tinny music again. He also invited me out to a free gig, but unfortunately I had to tur n that one down. I can't even walk down to the shops without pausing to cough every five minutes, and I doubt a smoky pub would do me the least bit of good. Besides, I would have gone to the pub with Phil if I was going to. *wry grin*
Still, I don't want to be a downer, even tho' I tend to regress in maturity to a three year old when I'm sick. Want nothing more than to curl up and feel sorry for myself. Which is, pretty much, what I've done today. Still, at least I did it on my own without getting in peo ple's faces. I've decided this weekend is going to be my feeling sorry for myself weekend, and then it's back on that job-seeking horse on Monday. I will get a better job, eventually, it's just going to take a bit of work. And it's not going to hap pen if I sit on my arse and do nothing.
Better leave it at that, before I start sounding like one of those crappy motivational speakers. ;) Thanks to those who extended birthday greetings - it means a lot.ho
Still, I don't want to be a downer, even tho' I tend to regress in maturity to a three year old when I'm sick. Want nothing more than to curl up and feel sorry for myself. Which is, pretty much, what I've done today. Still, at least I did it on my own without getting in peo ple's faces. I've decided this weekend is going to be my feeling sorry for myself weekend, and then it's back on that job-seeking horse on Monday. I will get a better job, eventually, it's just going to take a bit of work. And it's not going to hap pen if I sit on my arse and do nothing.
Better leave it at that, before I start sounding like one of those crappy motivational speakers. ;) Thanks to those who extended birthday greetings - it means a lot.ho
Re: job hatred
But excuses aside, I _am_ trying. Just having my weekend of sorry-for-selfness, and then I'm back to it. Got a few more ideas, I'll see what they turn up.
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