On the subject of masks...

[deathpixie]

We all wear them. We have the public persona we project to the world, the one we hide behind and use to protect ourselves from the harshnesses and vagaries of the ratrace we call modern society. We have the image our families project onto us, and sometimes if we're lucky that image is pretty close to the way we actually are. The smiles we wear for our friends, and the frowns we wear for strangers. There's the people we wish we were, the ones we wish we weren't, and the ones in between.

There are times when I wonder which is the real me, under all the faces I wear.

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Re: Masks, schmasks:)

[deathpixie]

*laughing* Gold star for the Doqzling. One of my metaphysical wanker-trips, a bad habit of mine when I'm bored adn depressed. Thanks for the wake-up. :)

Actually, one thing I meant to add but didn't, which explains the "true self" comment, is the feeling that sometimes the many masks I wear pigeonhole me into a persona or personas that don't allow me the freedom to show certain feelings, or behave in a certain way. At the moment, there's a definite lean towards me being the "strong" one, the one who copes with crises and is always cheerful in the face of crap. Not a good thing, because when I do feel bad, or angry, or whatever, I get this feeling of guilt, that I'm not living up to expectations - my own and other people's. Not that I feel I have to please everyone, but the opinions of my family and friends are important, and there are certain people who have the ability to hurt me a great deal by thinking badly of me. This had happened, the day before this post, and I was feeling frustrated, because I wanted to be angry and irrational, and it was deemed to be "un-Jo-like" to be so. *grfs* Stupid, I know, but sometimes being irrational is like that. You think stupid things. Only problem with LJ is, other people read them.;)