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deathpixie) wrote2001-03-18 02:42 am
deathpixie) wrote2001-03-18 02:42 am
Ugh...
Why the hell am I still awake? Too afraid to go to bed, I s'pose, in case I end up in tears again. I hate crying - it leaves me all red and puffy like a tomato and makes my eyes itchy. It's times like this that time zones really suck. Although someone might be around in chat now; I'm not sure I want to do what I did to poor Staffie earlier - I know how frustrating it is to know someone online's hurting, but not being able to be there. I dislike putting other people in that position.
Gah, this is such a whingy weekend for me. I should be enjoying it, since it's the last before I go back to full-time and snatching writing and on-line time whenever I can. But isn't it ironic - in Melbourne, where I had friends available at a phone call, I never bothered, and up here, 300kms away, all I want is someone to go and have coffee and a chat with.
I need to get off my arse. I need to stop being so pathetic and go and get a life. I need to turn off this bloody computer and get some sleep.
Angst is contagious.
Gah, this is such a whingy weekend for me. I should be enjoying it, since it's the last before I go back to full-time and snatching writing and on-line time whenever I can. But isn't it ironic - in Melbourne, where I had friends available at a phone call, I never bothered, and up here, 300kms away, all I want is someone to go and have coffee and a chat with.
I need to get off my arse. I need to stop being so pathetic and go and get a life. I need to turn off this bloody computer and get some sleep.
Angst is contagious.