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Rossi ([personal profile] deathpixie) wrote2011-04-10 05:30 pm

Giant Meme o' Me - Days 19 and 20

Day 19 – Something you regret

After the Great Wollongong disaster, which was when my ex got a job interstate, we moved, and he then lost said job after three months, we lived with his parents for a time while we worked on reestablishing ourselves and finding a place to live. During that time, he broached the idea of breaking up with me, trying to explain a lot of the things he later did break up with me for, five years later.

I talked him out of it.

I regret that now and I think I probably always will. Those last five years of our relationship were the worst and if I'd realised sooner that it wasn't working, I wouldn't have gone through the crap I did. I would've been single five years earlier, in a much better financial position and in Melbourne, rather than Wodonga. A lot of things would have been different.

I thought we could work it out, that if we loved each other, things would be okay, that I could do better. Instead, I wasted five years of my life with someone who was already looking for an exit. It's hard not to kick myself for that.


Day 20 – This month

Hooray for spring. I don't know whether it's the increase in my meds or the changing weather or a bit of both, but I'm definitely feeling better these days. Well, aside from the sinus issues from hell - I feel like I have a crew of tiny miners using jackhammers in my face. But things are definitely better.




Day 01 - Introduce Yourself
Day 02 - Your first love
Day 03 – Your parents
Day 04 – What you ate today
Day 05 – Your definition of love
Day 06 – Your day
Day 07 – Your best friend
Day 08 – A moment
Day 09 – Your beliefs
Day 10 – What you wore today
Day 11 – Your siblings
Day 12 – What’s in your bag
Day 13 – This week
Day 14 – What you wore today
Day 15 – Your dreams
Day 16 – Your first kiss
Day 17 – Your favorite memory
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday

Day 19 – Something you regret
Day 20 – This month
Day 21 – Another moment
Day 22 – Something that upsets you
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
Day 25 – A first
Day 26 – Your fears
Day 27 – Your favorite place
Day 28 – Something that you miss
Day 29 – Your aspirations
Day 30 – One last moment