And today was supposed to be a Good Day. It's pencilled in.

[deathpixie]

So there's a debate on the SCML about what constitutes Subreality canon. Everyone's getting het up about it.

And I couldn't give a rat's.

I know this is probably going to offend a few of my friends (who I know read this LJ), but honestly? I can't find the energy to care. The only reason I'm even involved in it is because I was asked for my opinion as THOSD moderator. Which should be given no more weight than anyone else's opinion, because the whole Keeper thing doesn't make THOSD mine, it just means I compile the RRs and settle the occasional board-related argument and keep the place troll-free. Admin-type stuff.

Of course, I'm partly responsible for the whole thing, since I read the fic in question and it didn't even occur to me that people would have a problem with it. More of the apathy factor I guess. And it's because of this apathy thing that I'm starting to wonder if I'm a fit moderator, because at the moment I seriously can think of a whole bunch of stuff I'd rather be (and should be) dealing with, rather than this. *shrugs* Hell, if someone I could rely on wanted the job tomorrow, I'd hand it over, Key and all. Because personally I think everyone's taking all this way too seriously.

It's a game people. So what if there was an early version of THOSD run by a Muse? It's not going to affect world poverty or the fact George Bush has made himself Global Sheriff, or that it's illegal to gather in groups largely than three people in Malaysia (it was three, wasn't it Yasmin? My brain's turning to mush lately). It's not going to affect the stories you personally write, or the overall structure of Subreality. You can do what's always been done with fic that people don't think is worthy of becoming "canon" and ignore it. Perhaps even talk to the writer about why you don't like it, personally.

Sometimes it feels like my brain's failing on me. I'm tired and I can't concentrate on anything, and I'm forgetting everything and my sleep patterns are screwed. My psych tells me it's stress. But whatever it is, it means that I'm probably not capable of doing my moderating job beyond compiling and sorting out the occasion continuity glitch (when it's pointed out to me). So please, sort it out yourselves.

Because I can't find it in me to care.

Comments

[thehush.livejournal.com]

*claps* Well said.

Hrm.

[lyssie.livejournal.com]

No, you didn't anger me. Or make me roll my eyes.

I just. Yeah, in some ways, I agree. It's just a non-real world, where anything can happen. I think I'm tired, though, of awful fic being written and accepted as canon.

Obsidian's Muse was the final straw, as it were.

I'm feeling very introspective right now, so I plan to ramble a bit. I think.

It came as a shock to realise that I was very unhappy with the way most of the Muse genre has headed within the last year. Most of the stuff pouring out is written by newer people who want to play in the world I helped create--am I being arrogant? Possibly. But you have to remember that (iirc) Lyssie was the second Muse to be written.

Granted, the Captain had been around for a hell of a lot longer. And I made a ton of horrible newbie mistakes. But she was there.

Yasmin and I together birthed the Tapcoterie, and launched a new section of Subreality fic. I credit Yas more, since she'd (as I said) had the Captain in Subreality far longer than I had been around.

She also created Calliope as we know her.

Farli once asked me why we've never finished Operation: Ultimate Writer. I think it was the backlash that followed the sudden creation of tons of Muses.

Not everyone liked them. Not everyone thought they were niftykeenoneato. For some people they were just a fad whose bandwagon they wanted to jump on, and did.

I'm not saying all Musefic was golden and pure back then, btw. Some of it sucked arse, as Serry would say.

I'm also not saying it was a time of revolution and strife. *snerk*

I am saying it was all new then. We thought we had the world--I remember disliking Farli's Collegium idea at first. And then I realised how fun the whole thing could be--another place for the muses to play!

Nowadays, I feel jaded. Sad, but true. I've seen most kinds of Musefic, and I just don't find most of it to my taste.

I don't think lusting after Muses is cute. I think it's sick and boring. And, yes, I know there's the whole Lyssie/Frank angle. But, that's different (to me), mainly because as much as I adore you dear, I don't think of you in that way.

Maybe that's what it is that really bothers me. There are better things to do with Muses than use them as sex objects, or Ancient Beings Who Know All.

Sidenote: Except Dark River. That fic was terribly amusing.

Yeah, Muses do Know All. But most of the time, they're just living day to day. I think that's why I like sending them to the pub, or just doing completely silly things with them (trenchcoat maffia!).

Because, really, Immortal Beings have to get bored with it after a while.

And they've done the big angsty battle.

*pause* I'd like to note, btw, that I personally think of myself as rather hypocritical on this. I tend to completely Mary Sue my own Muse. Which is probably why I stopped writing so much of her.

Unlike Serry, I'm not planning on leaving Subreality. I still have stories I'd like to write, places I'd like to explore. But I don't think I'll bother posting muse-related stuff anymore. Not because I'm not writing it, but because I don't like what the genre has become.

Very childish, yes. But there it is.

Anyway. I did warn I'd ramble.

hugs, Ana

Re: Hrm.

[deathpixie]

Thanks for this Lyssiekins. *hugs* I was hoping I hadn't made you hate me, but my limit re conflict is pretty low these days. I'm getting grouchy in my old age. ;)

Any way, I appreciate your thoughts. Agree with a lot of them too. I'll probably reply in more depth and a bit more coherently once I've got some time - thank goodness for public holidays. :)