All right, I get the hint...

[deathpixie]

Life's doing one of those serendipity things to me again.

I'm listening - not watching, since I'm facing the wrong way on the couch so the modem cable reaches the the phone jack - a show on the ABC called Compass. Traditionally it's one of those Sunday night religious type programs, but it covers not just Christianity but a whole gamut of religious and philosophical topics. Over the past few weeks they've been running a series called "A Guide To Happiness". It's been rather enlightening, a look at various philophers and their insights into happiness. Tonight is Neitzsche, and there's a lot of talk about suffering as important to happiness. Summed up? You can't be happy unless you know hardship, because true happiness requires effort and pain to give it meaning. "That which does not kill me, makes me strong", is one of his. Not everything that makes us suffer is bad, because of the good that comes of it. Like the pain you feel climbing a mountain, for the reward of the view from the top, or the effort a ballerina makes to dance.

Or something like that.

Not unlike the Bhuddist principles Gerg has been teaching me, and that I've been reading up on. And it strikes a chord, and I know I've been foolish, moping over things this weekend, but...

...enough, already!

My life is ruled by coincidence, or fate, or serendipity or Murphy, whatever you want to call it. And it pisses me right off, because I'm a happy little control freak, and if I have no control over this stuff, what do I have control over?

Which sends me back in a neat little circle about the philosophy of happiness and how life will always contain a certain amount of difficulty, because that's the way it is.

So, no pain, no gain. Enough throwing my little hissy fits over having to be the one that calls and blokes who have lives of their own and are too busy to drop everything and give me nookie. Enough 'nobody loves me, everyone hates me, think I'll eat some worms". No more melodramatic statements about how hard done by I am (when I'm not, in the scheme of things) and just getting on with it. Five months isn't that far away and even if it wasn't, all of my whining wouldn't alter that. My friends have their own lives, and it isn't their purpose in life to validate my existence.

***

I spent the evening re-reading "Reality Strikes", which I have nicely compiled and edited on my Book. (Aside, kielle, do you want this? It'll be a few emails' worth, considering your computer hates my text files). Damn that was a fun RR. Played around with an opening post for the next one, which I'll mail to Dex when I'm done. It's his baby, after all, and while I know what he wants to do, I'll let him drive. ;) It's improved my mood no end, and I'd love to get the opportunity to relive my college days again. ;)

My CBFFA segment is pretty much done - some tweaking involved to cover a gap I've discovered, but nothing major. Even got the slots to insert the winner into. And it has the traditional Rossi Fanfic Moral. ;)

Sleep time. Catch you later.

Comments

[kielle.livejournal.com]

Yes please! :)

[deathpixie]

Deal. Expect it in bits - like I said, it's a big 'un. I have it in three files just so I could manage it okay.

[obsidian179.livejournal.com]

I look forward to reading the CBFFAs. (They won't be 8 or so months late like they were in 1999, will they? *innocent look*) And just in case you were wondering, no, I'm not going to request permission to write a segment. I don't know the other writers or their work well enough. (I do have a segment for the Best Fanfic Series - one of the segments that was never made - for the 1999 CBFFAs sitting in my computer, but that's different. It's likely going to stay there, as I think it's just a liiitle late to be included in the archived version. *G*)

Yeah, the "Reality Strikes" RR was a lot of fun. Even for those of us just reading it. *G* Next one? *twitches* There's going to be another one? *twitches again* No, stop that. I can control myself. I don't need to be in every RR that exists. I will wait until someone invites me before I even start thinking about joining in... *VEG*

[deathpixie]

And just in case you were wondering, no, I'm not going to request permission to write a segment. I don't know the other writers or their work well enough.

Just as well since a) Dex is our Dread Editor and you'd be asking him, and b) we've been working on this for the last couple of months, basically since Dex announced the nomination booth was open.

And no, they won't take eight months to be posted - AFAIK everything's running smoothly, as none of us wants to be responsible for driving Dex completely insane. ;) At least I'm not moving house in the middle of writing it this year. ;)

Re "Reality Strikes" - there's porbably going to be another one. Like I said, it's Dex's baby and I'm not going to be the cause of spanners in works or limelight, theft of. We're due for another RR, I'd reckon, tho'. Something to kick off the House after the administrative stuff.

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[obsidian179.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I kinda suspected that if I wanted to ask, he was the one I'd be asking. But like I said, even I'm not crazy enough to try something like that without knowing the work - and people - better. Perhaps by the time we're getting ready for the 2003 CBFFAs... well, who knows? I'll burn that bridge when I come to it. As for the 1999 segment, if you or anyone else wants to see it, feel free to ask.

Ooo, my first RR as a House member! *twitches again* God, that's annoying! ;)