I've been thinking on this one throughout the day. Tough question.
I'd have to say my fear of rejection. The feeling that people won't like/love me. It holds me back in so many ways, and it's so deep-rooted it's taking a lot of work to get over. Partly because of trying to get my father's attention as a kid (he was never at home, it seemed), partly because of my high school experiences, where I went from years eight to ten with no friends at all, and those I had in year eleven became my friends out of pity. And my relationship with BRM - he exacerbated that feeling by his criticism of me, especially of the way I behave in a social situation (he says I talk about myself too much).
It's baggage I'm working on ditching - it just is particularly persistent.e
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Date: 2002-05-17 06:22 am (UTC)I'd have to say my fear of rejection. The feeling that people won't like/love me. It holds me back in so many ways, and it's so deep-rooted it's taking a lot of work to get over. Partly because of trying to get my father's attention as a kid (he was never at home, it seemed), partly because of my high school experiences, where I went from years eight to ten with no friends at all, and those I had in year eleven became my friends out of pity. And my relationship with BRM - he exacerbated that feeling by his criticism of me, especially of the way I behave in a social situation (he says I talk about myself too much).
It's baggage I'm working on ditching - it just is particularly persistent.e