Hell day...

It might be possible to have a worse day, but not by much. Maybe I'll get run over on my bike on the way home or something - that'd just top it off.

I found out today that Paula, the other deputy registrar, has some kind of problem with me. To the extent that she started biting my head off, in front of the people at the counter, about the least little thing. Normally I'd shrug it off, or just go and be angry elsewhere for a while, but after the night I had last night (and thanks, Raph, for the chat, it did help), I ended up dashing for the bathroom and sobbing there for about fifteen minutes. Great look for court - Tomato Woman. Pete and the magistrate (who overheard Paula's last outburst) are sticking up for me, but in a three person court, the last thing I want is an Us -v- Her situation. Especially when she's been at the court here a lot longer than I have.

I felt ratshit all day, after this wonderful start - Paula ended up going home at lunchtime, adn we're not sure if she's coming back. And for the life of me I can't figure out what I did wrong. But the timing is just awful - I'm already feeling isolated and lonely and unwanted, and now this. Nothing's gone right since I moved here, and deciding to stay on that extra bit of time was a huge mistake. Hell, I should have moved back to Melbourne as soon as BRM and I split up. And now I'm locked into another four months.

Tai chi in a couple of hours. Hopefully it'll settle the sick feeling in my stomach. And I'm going to drop by mum and dad's on the way home, mainly to pay the rent, but also to check out that veteran's deal - apparently as a child of a vet I can get free counselling or something. God knows I need something to help me out, because I'm just falling apart at the seams here. Nothing's going right.

Positive things before bedtime...

Just so my entire day doesn't prove to be an angst-fest...

Very Happy Birthday wishes to lisew, the Evil Little Toaster herself. There is a fic in the works, mate, but I wanted to wish you a happy birthday first, just in case I don't finish it tomorrow as planned. You mean more to me than I can ever say, either out loud or in writing.


And reminding myself that I have Plans for the long weekend (even longer, since Pete has given me Tuesday off as a Sanity Break) - yasminm, andrastewhite and lokisrose, I will be in Melbourne this weekend - how about catching up? I have karate-type things as well which are still being arranged, but if you guys have Monday off, feel up to a Caffienated Beverage and World Domination Session on Monday? Sunday's fine, if you've got uni, only I may be a trifle hungover. ;)