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Giant Meme o' Me - Days 19 and 20
Apr. 10th, 2011 05:30 pmDay 19 – Something you regret
After the Great Wollongong disaster, which was when my ex got a job interstate, we moved, and he then lost said job after three months, we lived with his parents for a time while we worked on reestablishing ourselves and finding a place to live. During that time, he broached the idea of breaking up with me, trying to explain a lot of the things he later did break up with me for, five years later.
I talked him out of it.
I regret that now and I think I probably always will. Those last five years of our relationship were the worst and if I'd realised sooner that it wasn't working, I wouldn't have gone through the crap I did. I would've been single five years earlier, in a much better financial position and in Melbourne, rather than Wodonga. A lot of things would have been different.
I thought we could work it out, that if we loved each other, things would be okay, that I could do better. Instead, I wasted five years of my life with someone who was already looking for an exit. It's hard not to kick myself for that.
Day 20 – This month
Hooray for spring. I don't know whether it's the increase in my meds or the changing weather or a bit of both, but I'm definitely feeling better these days. Well, aside from the sinus issues from hell - I feel like I have a crew of tiny miners using jackhammers in my face. But things are definitely better.
( and the rest )
After the Great Wollongong disaster, which was when my ex got a job interstate, we moved, and he then lost said job after three months, we lived with his parents for a time while we worked on reestablishing ourselves and finding a place to live. During that time, he broached the idea of breaking up with me, trying to explain a lot of the things he later did break up with me for, five years later.
I talked him out of it.
I regret that now and I think I probably always will. Those last five years of our relationship were the worst and if I'd realised sooner that it wasn't working, I wouldn't have gone through the crap I did. I would've been single five years earlier, in a much better financial position and in Melbourne, rather than Wodonga. A lot of things would have been different.
I thought we could work it out, that if we loved each other, things would be okay, that I could do better. Instead, I wasted five years of my life with someone who was already looking for an exit. It's hard not to kick myself for that.
Day 20 – This month
Hooray for spring. I don't know whether it's the increase in my meds or the changing weather or a bit of both, but I'm definitely feeling better these days. Well, aside from the sinus issues from hell - I feel like I have a crew of tiny miners using jackhammers in my face. But things are definitely better.
( and the rest )
