Hump day

[deathpixie]

No, the title doesn't mean I got lucky today - it just means it's Wednesday, otherwise known as hump day, as you're over the hump and beginning the downhill run into the weekend. Work was better today, although we started late owing to me being the only person in the office at 10am; with people making their appearances for court, I couldn't really leave them to it and go start things. I'm still hugely tired - I'm trying hard to finish this story before Friday, but I'm not sure I'm going to be able to. Imagination takes energy, energy I don't seem to have.

Things are nagging at my conscience. I've sorted my beta commitments with an email to those waiting patiently for me and intend to devot this weekend to other people's work. There are friends hurting, and I feel I should contact them, see how they are, but I don't have the emotional resources. I'm just totally and utterly drained. Even the fuck up with my credit card as I yet again tried to buy my laptop didn't anger me for long - when it had drained away, I felt cold and empty. I feel like I need to curl up and sleep for the next three months.

I know I'm not being a good friend at the moment, and i'm sorry for it. Rest assured, when I come out of this... whatever it is, I will make amends.