PSA: Beware the Cranky

[deathpixie]

I'm not sure why, but everything is irritating the crap out of me today.

My bath of last night had the reverse effect intended - instead of feeling better, I felt horrible, all cold and achey and tired, so I missed band night and wound up in bed, cuddling the wall heating vent all night despite the thick duvet and the pyjama pants I had on. And I'm still not great today - the flu is apparently doing a last stand against my immune system. Yay for feelings of isolation and guilt brought on by the fact I'm too damn sick to do anything or talk to anyone. Including my roommate last night - there were maybe five words exchanged as he got up out of bed and I was heading towards mine.

Counselling... eh. Wasn't bad, wasn't good, just was. I at least walked home, tho'.

Work... I had to send Natasha a second email, justifying why I should be given access to a certain computer system that we use for records, since I have to get other people to add any new files for Alvin or Jane and it's annoying to them and to me. Apparently "so I can do my job properly" wasn't good enough. God I hate bureaucracy and pedantry sometimes. *grfs* And it doesn't help every time I get settled into something, someone interrupts me, and not even with 'important' things, stupid little computer-related issues that because I'm not a technical moron, I'm apparently the source of all answers.

Various other things are bugging me as well, nothing major in and of itself, but all culminating to make me cranky and exasperated and irritable. And snappish. Yay. I'm starting to think the best option might be to turn off anything resembling inter-communication and go do my filing, before I bite someone's head off more than I already have.

Comments

[ferox.livejournal.com]

Er. Wait. What in the world are you feeling guilty about? Because if it's 'not paying enough attention' type guilt, uh. I'm faaaairly certain no one in the world is upset at you for being sick and lacking an attention span, hon.

No guilt. Quit iiiit.

[deathpixie]

Eh, just feeling vaguely guilty because I haven't seen Mindy for ages, there's a bunch of emails I need to write but have no words for, and there's people I consider friends definitely feeling the lack. And I'm feeling resentful as a result, which makes me guilty. Plus I screwed up trying to get together with Fatimah last night again, which never makes me a happy camper. Hopefully she doesn't think I'm trying to avoid her. :(

[ferox.livejournal.com]

You absolute goose. Min had this flu, remember? She knows how hardcore it kills one dead. And Fatimah? Is a very understanding and kind person who has seen how sick you are. That, and is smart enough to know that you wouldn't BE avoiding her.

Now, I can't speak for the rest, but. Stop thinking that your friends always assume the worst in you. We generally think the best.

Because we looooove you. *noms*

[indiana-j.livejournal.com]

there's a bunch of emails I need to write but have no words for, and there's people I consider friends definitely feeling the lack.

Your friends really do understand what being under the weather and stressed can do to a body. There's nothing wrong with letting some emails sit in the inbox or with you needing some time to yourself to kick the illness in the butt.

Just with jetlag last week, all I had the energy to do was see my roommates for like an hour and then I was in bed at 9:30 for nearly a week straight. XD

[diamond-dust06.livejournal.com]

I'm totally with you on that misanthropy thing. Nothing in particular happened, but I'd really just like a good sulk right now. Weird.

[qbmuses.livejournal.com]

Hey, I was cranky yesterday and I don't even have the excuse of being sick. You do what you want, chica. It'll all sort itself out.