Itchy Feet

Oh man, I've been beating myself up about that SO MUCH lately. That was totally me yesterday, actually, and very much regretting it now, but doesn't excuse the feelings in the first place. This is why I hate that I've been doing so much whining to people, because while yes it is nice to know that people sympathize, sympathy is NOT a foundation for a real friendship. I've said to Nic and Andrea many times 'yes, it will upset me but I'd rather you be honest with me instead of telling me what I want to hear.' I find it hard cuz I perceive myself as being weaker with everyone, but at the end of the day I always try to remind myself that I'm not going to get better or grow or learn or all that junk if people just tell me what I want to hear all the time. Of course, it doesn't help during the initial flare up of Irish temper to keep me from being a melodramatic banshee, but it's always in the back of my mind and lately I think I've been getting better at keeping the real friends vs sympathizers thing in my head to kep myself from doing irreparable damages to my relationships like I used to in the past.