Right there with you. Her description of depression as a wasteland of boring and hopelessness and pointlessness hit me really hard today, because it's what I've been fighting for a few months now, more than usual. Really probably for the last half-year.
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Perhaps I'm just looking for attention
Wanting -seeking- attention isn't a bad thing. It's normal and healthy and human. People who do not want the attention of others at all* - we call that having a personality disorder (literally, it's Schizoid Personality Disorder, and possibly appropriately, it was part of my class topic yesterday, so it's on my mind.)
Depression tells us otherwise, because it twists things around into askewed darker versions of what they really are, and tells us that the things need to live and be happy are wrong to want and need. Depression LIES. It's a liar with your face and voice and that's why it's so hard to overcome, because how can you tell the lies from the truth when it's your own voice in your head?
* This is different from being an introvert or being shy =
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Date: 2013-05-09 05:28 pm (UTC)=
Perhaps I'm just looking for attention
Wanting -seeking- attention isn't a bad thing. It's normal and healthy and human. People who do not want the attention of others at all* - we call that having a personality disorder (literally, it's Schizoid Personality Disorder, and possibly appropriately, it was part of my class topic yesterday, so it's on my mind.)
Depression tells us otherwise, because it twists things around into askewed darker versions of what they really are, and tells us that the things need to live and be happy are wrong to want and need. Depression LIES. It's a liar with your face and voice and that's why it's so hard to overcome, because how can you tell the lies from the truth when it's your own voice in your head?
* This is different from being an introvert or being shy
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