Time, time, time, see what's become of me.
Apr. 6th, 2002 06:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
deathpixieOoh, looks like it's going to be a songquote kind of night. ;)
Any way, back to the point. Because there is one, under all this beer-induced hyperactivity. I was thinking of Seraph's LJ post, about time and how she sees it, while I was in the shower removing the smell of fertilizer. Blah. Any way... she said something about living for today and not being able to look at the future in positive terms (hope you don't mind the mention, mate). And I was thinking about how it's the opposite with me - the only thing that is keeping me moderately sane right now is focussing on the future, not the past or the present. Because the past is full of stuff I'd rather not remember, and the present is so fucking boring. Basically it's my plans for travel that's keeping me here - if I didn't have those, I'd be so gone. Disappeared on the road somewhere with my backpack and a sign saying "Wherever I End Up".
*jumps around and seeks diversion* Damn, I'm so bloody antsy. Need to be somewhere, doing something, talking to someone. Not stuck in this one-idea town with nothing but plans.
Any way, back to the point. Because there is one, under all this beer-induced hyperactivity. I was thinking of Seraph's LJ post, about time and how she sees it, while I was in the shower removing the smell of fertilizer. Blah. Any way... she said something about living for today and not being able to look at the future in positive terms (hope you don't mind the mention, mate). And I was thinking about how it's the opposite with me - the only thing that is keeping me moderately sane right now is focussing on the future, not the past or the present. Because the past is full of stuff I'd rather not remember, and the present is so fucking boring. Basically it's my plans for travel that's keeping me here - if I didn't have those, I'd be so gone. Disappeared on the road somewhere with my backpack and a sign saying "Wherever I End Up".
*jumps around and seeks diversion* Damn, I'm so bloody antsy. Need to be somewhere, doing something, talking to someone. Not stuck in this one-idea town with nothing but plans.
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Date: 2002-04-06 02:38 am (UTC)I kind of agree with what you said. I *know* the only thing keeping me going on the bad days is the fact that I can still dream about getting better oneday. Becase frankly, the past was so nice it hurts to think about it and the present is fucking terrifying. All I *can* do is dream about a nicer future right now.