Time, time, time, see what's become of me.

[deathpixie]

Ooh, looks like it's going to be a songquote kind of night. ;)

Any way, back to the point. Because there is one, under all this beer-induced hyperactivity. I was thinking of Seraph's LJ post, about time and how she sees it, while I was in the shower removing the smell of fertilizer. Blah. Any way... she said something about living for today and not being able to look at the future in positive terms (hope you don't mind the mention, mate). And I was thinking about how it's the opposite with me - the only thing that is keeping me moderately sane right now is focussing on the future, not the past or the present. Because the past is full of stuff I'd rather not remember, and the present is so fucking boring. Basically it's my plans for travel that's keeping me here - if I didn't have those, I'd be so gone. Disappeared on the road somewhere with my backpack and a sign saying "Wherever I End Up".

*jumps around and seeks diversion* Damn, I'm so bloody antsy. Need to be somewhere, doing something, talking to someone. Not stuck in this one-idea town with nothing but plans.

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Total agreement

[trishalynn.livejournal.com]

I know exactly what you're talking about. It's a coping mechanism that was "taught" to me by JB. I need to have things to look forward to so that I'm not constantly dragged down by my current circumstances. I'm an optimist by nature, so to be thinking about the sucky "now" as opposed to the bright and beautiful later doesn't work for me as it might work for other people. (Sera, not dogging on your mechanisms; they just wouldn't work for me.)

You do and will have a bright and beautiful later, because you have it in you to make it happen, wherever you end up in life. I have faith in you.