Whoa.

[deathpixie]

Oberon and Acetal said something tonight in chat that honestly surprised me.

They look up to me.

That always truly amazes me, finding out people like and respect me. Because for so long no-one did, and it's hard to shake off the perception that you're worhtless. I'm no-one special, not any more wise or kind than anyone else. I just try to treat other people how I would like to be treated, and a lot of the time, it's like pissing into the wind. You get taken for granted, used and taken advantage of, to the point that you just want to give up, say, "Screw this, I want to be a bastard too." Even BRM told me that the reason why Kate fascinates him so much is because she's a bitch sometimes. *shakes her head* How can that be an admirable trait, treating someone badly?

I'll never understand people.

But Obie and Acey reminded me that while sometimes it feels differently, there are people out there who care about me, and give a damn what happens to me. *hugs both* Thanks so much guys, I really appreciate it.

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[ex_amurderofcrows752]

Damn straight. I still have my Genuine Rossi Wombat with me and he's got a li'l space of honor, cause I got him from someone cool who gave a damn o.- Even if I did drop off the face of the planet and hid, becoming severely disillusioned with life, the universe and everything X-Fandomwise. o.o;