Missing In Action: General Enthusiam

[deathpixie]

Also, Sergeant Motivation.

*rimshot*

Seriously though, I'm so tired. Have been for days now. All my enthusiasm for stuff, even the trip and all, is down around my toes somewhere. As for creative stuff... gah. Haven't felt like writing anything for a week or two now. I have, since I've been needed for RPG stuff, but yeah, the efforts are pretty half-hearted. And I'm really not that revved up about my own plot, which is instrumental to what I've been doing all year. *sighs* Just... don't have the energy.

I'll try cranking up the B12 - the bone-deep weariness is similar to when I was deficient, and the wacky eating patterns probably haven't helped. Massage tonight - bliss! - which should help with the sleeping, since yeah, tense as all hell. And having nightmares to boot - woke myself up last night with dreams about having to stab someone in the stomach with a sharpened stick, and then more about killing white rats. *shrugs* Don't ask my subconscious what's with all the destruction lately. And a night out with friends doing something fun should also help.

Then one more day of half-assed work (I'm really not pulling my weight at the moment at all), and the weekend where I can sleep in and take things a bit easier. Thank god.

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[technophobia.livejournal.com]

I've been having the tiredness problem since I arrived in California, it seems like. Wake up several times in the middle of the night, etc.

Am taking multivitamin, and I _think_ it's slowly starting to help. Now I just need to work on the whole motivation thing.

*hugs* You need help with something, though, let me know. Because lord knows I occasionally need a little ass-kicking from people.

[deathpixie]

Thanks for the offer, mate, but yeah, not really anything you can help with game-wise, and the rest is kind of up to me. Usually when I post my whinges, I'm not expecting anyone to be able to help, just clearing the air. ;) But it's comforting to know that if someone could help, they'd offer.

Does that make sense?

[technophobia.livejournal.com]

It absolutely does. Which is why I made the offer, even knowing that there probably wasn't anything I could do to help. :)