Still here

[deathpixie]

The session went okay. First session, lots of rehashing of everything in my life. Which left little time for actual addressing, beyond the usual sort of pep talk I get from my friends. *wry* Yes, you've all been right all along and I'm a dope. I made another appointment for two weeks, came home, cried through a shower and then curled up on the couch in my pyjamas watching West Wing with the roomie. I'm okay. Not great, but okay. I've taken that first step, at least.

We'll see how it goes.

Apologies for not answering any personal email after a certain point today - I just haven't been in the best frame of mind for talking about problems. Mine or anyone else's.

Comments

[msss.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Yeah, it feels weird doesn't it? Like I should go in and they should give me the magic instructions to fix my life that everyone else has and it'll all work.

Today was less of an "Aha!" session for me, but a couple more interesting realisations.

*hugs again*

[deathpixie]

Yeah, that's exactly it. Especially when I know pretty much what's up, but still have to go through it all again. And telling me to nuture myself is all well and good, but I need to feel worthy of nurturing first. :P

*hugsback* Still, we'll both keep at it, yeah?

[msss.livejournal.com]

Yes, definitely. We've finally worked out what Mum has, and it helps a little to understand lots of things. Of course, now the trick is to work out the next steps.