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deathpixieJust finished the sequel to "Frank's Heater" - it's been sent to my Farli-Childe for a once-over. She's been a big help with this one; I didn't really like where it was going, and something she said in email gave me a big boost. :) It's been a while since I've written much Subreality fic, which is strange after the almost deluge everyone on the list copped last year. I suppose it's been harder, getting decent ideas - there's a big temptation to just rattle off something simple, something cliched, and let it go at that. But I'm finding I'm more reluctant to do that now. Maybe because of the award; I don't want to sound big-headed, but it has meant a lot to me, getting that recognition, if only from a small list like the #scml. Too bad we've been so slack on the awards show - I really should stir folks up with that, since Doqz seems to be too busy with other stuff.
At least I've resolved the Frank thing (*laughs* for a second I read that to be Frank Thring, the late Aussie actor), which is funny, because I have been swamped with ideas for stuff lately after that dry spell over the move. Art imitating life imitating fantasy. ;) Lots of stuff on my "To Do" list: it's my "To Write" list, really. At least I can knock one off, once Farli gets back to me and I can post it. Just as well, since there's that Shantytown idea buzzing around in my head at the moment, and that idea I mentioned to Trisha about Kielle's proposed "Survivor's Club". Only thing is, I don't want to be seen to be harping on about it.
Oh, funny tangent. I went to BRM's room today to ak him something, and caught him playing air guitar and dancing around to Electronic. Picture it, if you will; six-foot tall, burly bloke, dancing around the room like a sixteen year old. ;) I had to duck back against the wall to giggle. I haven't seen him this happy since... since our first years together, really. I don't know whether it's the medication, the fact he's taking charge of his life and doing something he considers worthwhile again, or the relief in not having to pretend to be something he doesn't feel to be true, but whatever it is, I'm glad to see it. It makes me glad to see him happy, because that's what we always wanted for each other. If it's not going to happen together, than I guess I'm going to have to accept it - I'd rather be apart and happy, then together and unhappy. Besides, it's like Nick Seymour was saying on that farewell video for Crowded House - "We've still got our dignity... we're ending this before we start hating each other". Roughly paraphrased, but that's the gist of it.
At least I've resolved the Frank thing (*laughs* for a second I read that to be Frank Thring, the late Aussie actor), which is funny, because I have been swamped with ideas for stuff lately after that dry spell over the move. Art imitating life imitating fantasy. ;) Lots of stuff on my "To Do" list: it's my "To Write" list, really. At least I can knock one off, once Farli gets back to me and I can post it. Just as well, since there's that Shantytown idea buzzing around in my head at the moment, and that idea I mentioned to Trisha about Kielle's proposed "Survivor's Club". Only thing is, I don't want to be seen to be harping on about it.
Oh, funny tangent. I went to BRM's room today to ak him something, and caught him playing air guitar and dancing around to Electronic. Picture it, if you will; six-foot tall, burly bloke, dancing around the room like a sixteen year old. ;) I had to duck back against the wall to giggle. I haven't seen him this happy since... since our first years together, really. I don't know whether it's the medication, the fact he's taking charge of his life and doing something he considers worthwhile again, or the relief in not having to pretend to be something he doesn't feel to be true, but whatever it is, I'm glad to see it. It makes me glad to see him happy, because that's what we always wanted for each other. If it's not going to happen together, than I guess I'm going to have to accept it - I'd rather be apart and happy, then together and unhappy. Besides, it's like Nick Seymour was saying on that farewell video for Crowded House - "We've still got our dignity... we're ending this before we start hating each other". Roughly paraphrased, but that's the gist of it.
