The black dog

From a psychotherapy referral website I'm using to find a new counsellor:

Depression is one of the most common reasons that people seek therapy.
It is a chronic ‘down’ mood takes the lustre out of life, and includes feelings of worthlessness and incompetence, physical debility and fatigue, loss of libido, increased irritability, difficulty sleeping, lack of interest in life, poor appetite, increased anxiety, thoughts of suicide, and lack of hope.

...these people find that they tend to work hard to be good but are never satisfied with their own efforts. The result can be chronic perfectionism, dissatisfaction, morbid introspection, emotional withdrawal from others. Their anger turns inward and takes its toll on their ability to experience happiness or joy in life with others.

Many depressed people feel that they cannot connect with other human beings in an intimate and meaningful way. Their lives are missing the warmth, affection, trust or support that they need. They feel empty, weak, helpless and despairing.

This is what it's like for me. I hope it helps people understand - I'm not negative on purpose, it's just really difficult to see anything else.

One email sent, let's see about the rest.

Edit: Make that three. Three's a good start, right?

Yeah.

Not getting anything useful done today. Turning off the 'Net for a bit and going and doing something Not At Home tonight.

Evening off

So, instead of going home tonight, I went shopping at the Eaton Center for some much-needed underwear and two pairs of new bras (since my black one is AWOL and my white one is dying), plus a pair of PJ pants since my last set died last winter and I like to have something to curl up on the couch in.

Then I went to Queen Street, got sushi, and went to see 9, which was rather good. Not earth-shattering - I think I read a review somewhere which mentioned the story isn't anything ground-breaking and I tend to agree - but it's a good solid hero quest with some truly amazing animation. Gorgeous to watch, definitely.

Bed for me now and then finally Friday. I have a veritable tonne of filing to do, plus library inventory, however I've done the motion that's been plaguing me all week so that's a plus. Clean up day for me tomorrow, in more ways than one. However, that is tomorrow, and sleep calls. I go to my bed - I recommend everyone for whom it is bedtime do the same.