Breakthrough

[deathpixie]

Had my counselling session today, after the work Christmas party. I confronted her about the needing structure - she promptly whipped out the checklist of cognitive distortions, the ten ways to untwist your thinking, and the thought record sheet, plus said she thought Cognitive Behaviour Therapy would be good for me. *wry* I have another session in two weeks, a handy Google spreadsheet for my thought record, and my first entry. I'm drained, exhausted and ready to be unconscious for about twelve hours, but... I feel more hopeful than I have for a long while. This is progress.

I'm not expecting this to be the cure-all - I'm going to work on my eating habits, increase the fish in my diet and eat more fresh veggies and less pasta, plus probably lay off drinking for a week or two to detox myself before Christmas/New Year, as well as the Vitamin D supplements for the seasonal blues - but it's a start and I'll see how it goes. If the counsellor thinks it's necessary after the next few visits, I'll make that appointment with the doctor about the possibility of medication and do what I'm told, but she agrees with me that it's best to try this first.

Apologies to everyone who's been weathering the worst of my negative thinking lately. I know I haven't been fair on people, and I'm working on it. [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com], thanks for the phone call - I used what set me off as my first thought record, and I think it's helped.

Now I'm going to finish my mint tea and go to bed. [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com], I'll call you tomorrow sometime, yeah?

Comments

[technophobia.livejournal.com]

Seconding what she said. I remember you saying you were struggling with her, and to hear that you had this sort of productivity makes me very happy for you.

[deathpixie]

The other part will be me telling her next session that she needs to keep the momentum up, since yeah, yay me for pushing and all, but I know what I'm like and if she drops the ball again, I'm likely to let her. I really do need someone who doesn't let me get away with shit. *wry*

It's sunny today. I think I'll go for a walk in the park or something at some point.