Itchy Feet

Nightmares last night/this morning. Awful dreams about criminals and torturing people for information and executions and shootouts and all the rest. And with my whole body-swapping tendency in dreams, I got to experience it from all directions. Being the torturer... *shudders* Ugh.

Needless to say I woke up tired, but had to go to French this morning at 9:00, so no snooze button for me. As it was, I only just made it five minutes late and sans coffee/breakfast. An hour and a half of brain work on no sustenance is hard.

I had a day off yesterday, being a government type who gets Remembrance Day off. Today is dead quiet, with most of the staff taking a long weekend it seems, and it's chilly in the office due to the heating being off yesterday - it takes hours to heat the place up again so there is definite need for my emergency sweater that I keep in my filing drawer. I also got a hair cut yesterday, with my bangs coming back after months of hair in my face or brushed to the side so my forehead was the most prominent feature (I have a big forehead and when I don't have bangs, I tend to look like an egg with a toupee).

Kind of melancholy today. I was hoping it was just the lack of breakfast, but I've eaten and had my coffee and I'm still a bit meh. It's probably the bad sleep - one of the things I've learned in the past couple of years is that the depression is really susceptible to things like lack of sleep and low blood sugar and lack of sunlight. I can (and do) still get depressed for no apparent reason, but most of the time these days it's either to do with my physical state, or some kind of emotional turmoil. Both of which I'm getting much better at recognising and dealing with, or at least not giving more weight than they deserve (i.e., obsessing about my woes until they become all-consuming).

I guess I'm feeling a bit lonely. Money's been tight again, so I've been avoiding going out, which means I don't see anyone. The roomie's been working insane hours lately - I've seen him once since Wednesday - so I've been having a lot of solo evenings (although [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] came down last night and watched Avatar: The Last Airbender with me and we talked about her job stuffs, which was nice). I'm also stuck on my [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] for yesterday, so I'm behind again, which is annoying.

I bit the bullet and refriended some folks I defriended a while ago after the whole XP mess, which is nerve wracking as I still don't know what to say or what they might say to me. And I handed in my resignation from the XP modship, to take effect at the end of the year. So I guess I'm a bit worried about losing my... relevancy? Back to the old issue of worrying about people ignoring me if they don't actually need me for anything, I guess.

None of which is huge OMG drama, nor is it plunging me into the depths of despair (I don't get that as much any more, thank everything that might be responsible!), but it is contributing to a general feeling of "meh". Sandra the therapist has taught me how to focus on things and work my way through the emotional blah, so I'll try that - it's really quiet here today - and I'm sure I'll be fine by the time I get home and find a [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] on the couch. :)

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Ho hum.

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Work is eeriely quiet. I don't want to say anything and jinx it, so here's a Wiki update instead.

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Work totally kicked my arse today. I know I have approximately a gazillion logs atm, but you'll have to wait for me to reply tomorrow. Brain go bye-bye, sorry!

Bed now - it's late enough that I won't wake up at 5 in the morning.

So, on the way to the pub last night, before any alcohomahol was consumed, my handbag and shoes combined to nearly kill me on the stairs. Handbag slipped off my shoulder, so I let go of the handrail to swing it back on and the shoes I was wearing have apparently no grip on carpet and I slid completely off the edge of the stair I was walking down. Down I went, bouncing on my butt down several stairs and, of course, landing largely on the hip that's been giving me trouble any way.

So yeah, a bit sore today (as well as dopey from the two (TWO!) T3 the roomie gave me last night - whee coedine!). I'm going to have to try and stay mobile, since sitting actually hurts more, and I think I'll be making a trip to the pool to try and loosen things up - and join the Y using my credit card, since I've been meaning to.

Oh, by the way, I got my hair done yesterday. Cut and colour, with blonde highlights and touches of red underneath. I look like Glenn Close!

Now to nudge my plot writers along and have a shower so I can actually move. Down to the gym to cancel membership, I think first. If walking helps, I'll go for a stroll around Grenadier Pond. If it doesn't, pool downtown.

Yeah, Wiki stats are soothing. Sue me.

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I know I have a number of logs to reply to, and I will, but probably not until tomorrow. Mostly because shopping exhausts me more thoroughly than anything else I know of in the world. On the plus side, my Christmas shopping is mostly done, sans a few items that will hold on until Friday/next payday on the 24th. It's also wrapped. Christmas cards have been started also, although I ran out of oomph on that one today. Tomorrow. There's always tomorrow.

In the meantime, end of year memeness, grabbed from [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com]

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Tonight has been spent doing several Grown Up things:

1) Canadian credit card application for all those annoying things you need a credit card for and that I don't want to use my poor broken Aussie one on;

2) Miscellaneous online banking tasks, including tranferring funds from my ING account back to my Aussie bank account and thus to the broken credit card to satisfy payment until my loan cheque goes through;

3) Medical insurance claims, specfically, drawing up a document to provide further details for counselling that I'll get Sandra to sign next Tuesday and digging out my optometrist receipts to claim on my last two batches of contact lenses;

4) Sorted out various drug receipts to make tax time less confusing. Also collected together all my monthly travel passes, since I can claim on those too, whee!

5) Purchased Christmas gifts online for my dad and my two lawyers. Thanks to the joy of the internet, I'll actually get Dad's to him early for a change!

I also finally signed up for full union membership yesterday, which is about time given I've been paying the dues any way!

Left to do, tonight/tomorrow:

Go through scribbled Christmas list from last night and work out plan of attack and budget, given I have to pay for counselling again next week and I lost three days of work/pay with the bronchitis. :P

Call/email my personal loan guy and double check the status of the cheque they sent about three weeks ago, since my broken credit card is still broken and money has been coming out of my wage to cover the loan and I'd like to actually get some benefit to it.

Of course, after all that grown-upedness, I'm going to go and play my silly Facebook zoo game for a while, since I'm too tired to brain any more. Provided work actually does what it's supposed to do and isn't busy tomorrow, I hope to get some XP in again and try and resume my enthusiasm. Perhaps even log! *gasp!!!*