Back to the doctor I go

[deathpixie]

I'm tired of riding the Captain Paranoia Crazy Rollercoaster. Back with me to the doctor next week, to see about my meds. After nearly two years, it's entirely possible I've developed a tolerance for them and they're not working as well any more; my behaviour over the past couple of months should be a big indicator of that.

Comments

[mikaboo.livejournal.com]

Good luck! I hope the transition is as smooth as possible.

[deathpixie]

Thanks. :)

[frito-kal.livejournal.com]

I think this is a very good idea. I vaguely remember being told that 2 years was about the right time for looking at effective doses and seeing if a change is needed, not just because of tolerance but also because a change in schedule or circumstance or even acclimating to an environment can bring on body chemical changes.

[deathpixie]

Suddenly I'm getting the impression people were just waiting for me to do something like this all along... ;)

Appointment's on Friday. We shall see.

[frito-kal.livejournal.com]

Nope, just thinking it's a good idea after the fact. :)

[deathpixie]

Apparently it has not gone unnoticed that I have been backsliding considerably this past several months. *wry*

[frito-kal.livejournal.com]

I had noticed, but was at the "Hrm. Perhaps I should observe with concern for my friend." stage and into the "make sure it's not just the suck-ass weather taking a horrible toll" point of observation.

A week of -rain- makes me emo, I tend to let people ride through bad weather before I speak up. (I wonder if that IS part of the cause though?)

[deathpixie]

Partly? I'm not sure - it's worse than usual and like I said to Jen, there's been multiple breakdowns. And the paranoid thinking is back, so I'm tempted to go with "meds not as effective" as much as "weather sucks".

[indiana-j.livejournal.com]

And even if it's not the meds, talking to your doctor is a good thing. There might be things that they can recommend beyond the medication.

[frito-kal.livejournal.com]

Could be a whole mix of things too. I'm glad you're going into the doctor.

[deathpixie]

I'm getting tired of myself. Crazy isn't fun and sexy, it's boring.

[frito-kal.livejournal.com]

Boring and exhausting and prone to even MORE crazy. It's a sticky, cold, wet, cycle of emotional trauma like being stuck forever in a washing machine full of melted popsicles.

[deathpixie]

A salty popsicle. ;)

[frito-kal.livejournal.com]

Ew.

[indiana-j.livejournal.com]

Eeewww.

[seraangel.livejournal.com]

To be honest I wasn't sure if it was just the month or the wintery weather. It does show progress though that you've noted it yourself and decided to do something off your own bat. You wouldn't have done that a few years ago.

[trishalynn.livejournal.com]

And this kind of progress is good.

[indiana-j.livejournal.com]

I know how hard that can be but I think that's a really good idea. Especially considering what Frito mentioned - even things like allergy medicine might lose their effect over time due to certain things, so I'm not surprised that other meds do too.

[deathpixie]

Friday. And yes, anti-depressants do have the tolerance thing, as I saw with the ex. Which is even less of an excuse for me to wait so damn long before realising. But yeah, I'm having breakdowns at least twice a week at the moment, so I definitely need to do something.

[indiana-j.livejournal.com]

And also, two years might mean newer, better meds, too. *hugs*

[http://users.livejournal.com/_bounce_/]

Here's hoping it's as smooth and painless as possible, dude.

(Also, I'm looking into whether OSX 10.6 *can* be installed on more than one computer at a time, regardless of the legalities of it. If it can, want me to post the install discs across? My mac is a glorified paperweight as is, right now, given it's sans battery and screen.)

[http://users.livejournal.com/_bounce_/]

(And uh, it seems to run on an honour system, so...)

[deathpixie]

Is okay. Hopefully I should get my backpay soon, and I'll be able to get it myself far quicker and easier. Besides, my laptop probably needs some TLC any way. *wry* It'll be full of cat hair, for a start.